If you’ve ever visited my blog, you’ll know that it’s also called She Pursues – like my YouTube channel. I want to talk a little bit about what that means.

I got the idea about a year ago, when I was trying to figure out what in the world to do with my life. As you know, things weren’t exactly going the way I wanted them to. Everything was a mess, and I just felt like I was walking around aimlessly. The living dead.

And if you don’t know what I mean by that, let me explain.

I was focused on all the wrong things. I wasn’t focused on my family. I wasn’t focused on my faith. I wasn’t focused on my kids. I wasn’t even focused on the things about my health that I should have been focused on.

Instead, I was focused on a career that God didn’t really want for me, pouring as many hours as I could into something that wasn’t helping me at all. Of course, I didn’t realize this at the time. I didn’t realize this wasn’t part of God’s plan for me. But as things continued to spiral downwards, I realized that maybe this was His way of telling me to go a different direction. So, I immersed myself in prayer, trying to figure out what God wanted me to do with my life.

And when I did this, He showed me the words;

She Pursues.

I was like, “Oh. That’s kind of cool. Yeah; that’s kind of cool. Maybe that’s my new business name? Wonder what it’s going to be?”

Yeah; at that time, I had no idea what it meant, much less what to do with it. But as time went on, I started seeing the words pop up everywhere. And for those of you who have experienced something like this, you know. When God wants to show you something or reveal something to you, He’s consistent. But subtle. You’ll see it in maybe the things you read or the songs you hear, and you’ll see it often enough to know. In my case, God had shown me She Pursues and, even though I wasn’t a hundred percent sure what it meant, I never doubted that it was what He wanted for me.

Over the past year, I learned more and more about what that phrase, “She Pursues,” really meant for me. And the four areas that just kept coming up for me, over and over, in relation to that phrase, were: my faith, my family, my health, and my freedom. I realized, eventually, that these were the pillars I needed to pursue.

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She Pursues Faith.

My faith is my relationship with God. My prayer time, my Bible time – even just the time I take on a daily bases to speak to God and to build my relationship with Him. I mean, I’ve learned over time that it’s not enough to just read your Bible. It’s not enough to just go to church. You really have to build a strong, growing relationship with God.

Believe me; this is something that I’ve been more intentional about doing over this past year. And believe me when I say that God is a loving God. He blesses and blesses and just keeps on blessing, and when you finally open that door to Him? It’s truly incredible.

She Pursues Family.

When I was dead inside, when I was just going through the motions every day, just working ridiculous hours to build a career that was damaging me, I didn’t realize that I’d left my family behind. So my career was great and admirable and honorable. And sure, I was earning. But I was also unable to spend time with my kids. When I did have time for them, I didn’t have the energy. I didn’t spend time with my husband, either. It was always work.

Work, work, work.

And what that really translate to? Is me, me me.

And what God has revealed to me through this process of putting my family before everything else – aside from Him – is that the “me, me, me” mentality needs to change from one of serving myself to one of serving others. This actually ties into the third area; health.

She Pursues Health.

So for those of you who’ve already heard or read my chronic illness story, you know that I’ve been battling health issues for almost 10 years now. And what I’ve been able to gain in that whole time spent fighting chronic illnesses, searching for answers, and finding ways to help myself is that I can also help other people in similar situations. Through my story, I am able to show them that they’re not alone and that they don’t need to be alone. They don’t need to suffer in silence – or even suffer at all!

Even now, as I write this down, I can use what I’m learning day by day to help others who are also battling chronic illnesses.

So health is actually a big portion of what She Pursues is going to be on both my YouTube channel and my blog. As you know, I’m still battling chronic illnesses like Lyme disease, chronic fatigue, and celiac disease. I still have a couple other test results that I’m waiting on. When I get those back, I’ll be sure to share them with you.

Also; if you’re suffering or you know somebody who’s suffering from leaky gut issues, I’m planning to address that, too. And share what works for me.

She Pursues Freedom.

The final pillar. Why freedom, though? It’s such a broad word. It’s so general.

There are many things that can be considered “freedom.” But for me, Freedom lies in allowing myself to align my Health in my Faith and my Family. Doing this is going to naturally bring freedom to my life; freedom from the pressure of worldly standards.

For instance; take careers. People will always go into careers with the mindset that they need to come out on top. They need to constantly advance. Why? Because that will mean more money for them and for their family. This money, by extension, will also give them freedom. Freedom from money problems and concerns. Freedom to get whatever they want, whatever they want.

I had this mindset. Of course I did. But the more I thought about that mindset, the more I realized how damaging and selfish it could be – especially without the context of Faith, Family, and Health.

Freedom for me means something different now. Yes, we do need financial security. We do need that financial freedom. But the mindset behind it is different now. The mindset isn’t focused on the ends justifying the means. This new mindset, the She Pursues mindset, is focused on the journey. On the pillars of Faith, Family, and Health. I want to be financially free now so that I can go and do God’s work. I can go and free others of their financial burdens, their spiritual burdens, their health burdens. Serving God, living for God, and glorifying God in my actions of freeing others consequently frees me, too.

That is freedom for me. That is how I’m going to pursue freedom.

Listen; now is the time to really just ignite whatever it is inside of you that pushes you to relentlessly pursue.

Purse relentlessly. Let it come out. Stop walking around dead inside. Live your life.

This is what I tell myself all the time. Yes, even on days when I find it hard to get out of bed because I am so fatigued and I’ve let my illness take over and I feel like I can’t get up. I tell myself;

“Push on. Relentlessly purse, because God is relentlessly pursuing me. God is relentlessly loving me. God is relentlessly pushing me forward so that I can find my purpose and meaning.”

If there is anything I can tell you that you will take away and keep forever, it’s to relentlessly pursue. Your pillars don’t have to be the same as mine. You don’t need to relentlessly pursue four things. It depends on God’s perfect plan for you. What I can tell you is to pursue the things that mean the most to you. Figure out what those are. Is it God first, and then family and health? Is it your job or your career path? What would it mean for you if you could relentlessly pursue them?

Honestly? I can’t wait to pursue them with you.

I’m so happy you’re here. I really, really hope that you enjoy She Pursues, and I’m so excited to get to know you.